Random artwork

I've been turning what comes across my mind into vector graphic these days. Here are the recent two. Visual speaks it all.

Life goes on

The thought of living a quality life just strikes on me lately. Of living an unusual life in an ordinary person. What makes it extraordinary is probably the effort and productivity. You may just wake up in the morning and feeling all grumpy, extremely slack on doing anything, wondering aimlessly. Or waking up with a big smile on the face, with daily routine start running in the head, not forgetting to compartmentalize the emotion.

Not to deny that we constantly strive towards what we believe is good in life, and fantasize the topnotch life which undoubtedly revolve with cash for sure. Often neglect the finest view around us. You may say all of that always comes with a condition: money. How easily it rules us without us realizing. How it becomes issues of our daily lives. To think of it with depth, it is quite contradicting actually with the fact that some said money cannot buy happiness. Well, if there's no money, you can't satisfy your tummy either. Irony indeed.

Back to what I've started, quality life is simply to what extend we willing to give and take.

Good day :D

Screw it!

3:39 a.m.

It seems that I have developed such late-night-post habit.

Or my words just decided to flow better throughout in the middle of the night.

I miss the old times of us. 

Seriously, those moments we make fun of each other. 

I miss how you will stand beside me surprisingly when I watch movie.

I have no idea since when we have barrier between us. The invisible wall just intensively built over the night. Or maybe I shouldn't have let it out at all. It just ruined our friendship indirectly. Look what it has gotten myself into.
I sincerely do not want to lose you as my friend. 

Well well, not to mention, I have the tendency to dream of you when I sleep. 

I wake up feeling even weirder. 

It's not what I can control but I will really love to try on lucid dream* if it keeps happening. 

*A lucid dream is any dream in which one is aware that one is dreaming

A lucid dream can begin in one of two ways. A dream-initiated lucid dream starts as just a normal dream, and the dreamer eventually concludes it is a dream. A wake-initiated lucid dream occurs when the dreamer goes from a normal waking state directly into a dream state, with no apparent lapse in consciousness. The wake-initiated lucid dream "occurs when the sleeper enters REM sleep with unbroken self-awareness directly from the waking state"

Every time I duel with feeling that I cannot resolve, I will always vividly remind myself that I must stand way even stronger. 

Hey, that sounds boring right to stuck with "Oh, I must stand strong, bla bla bla."

Now, where is the creative juice? 

"You stupid little girl!" "How even simple thing you can't handle?" "Screw the goddamn feeling!" "This is just way too much!" "Why are you so concern?" "Why can't you just ditch all the crap pieces of thoughts and start living?" "How stupid you are!" " 大笨蛋!" "Bakka!"

This is what I call the alter ego of mine. 

To be continue.

PS. Just bear with me of the blank white layout. I have it all blank on my wallpaper and phone screen as well. 
I simply don't know what to do with us anymore.

A note for you.

It's 4:54am. 
Here am I, sitting and hitting on keyboard, trying to regain my senses.
Oh wait, let see when is the last time I pen down my thoughts here? 
It's April 2, 2012.
That is like 1 and a half years ago before I pursue my design course.
And yes, I'm currently taking Creative Multimedia in MMU. 
What had driven me to do so? Courage and passion with a little bit of fate.
More like I know I'm not a Science and Mathematic material nor Business and Account. 
So, design it is.

And should I say fate or unlucky to have come across you?
My memory is vivid that I remember the first time I met you. 
The very first time when both of us do not know each other. 
Frankly, the first impression you gave me was you are a person with depth. 
Next, I found myself browsing and reading your blog. 
Too much yet too little as you do not completely expose yourself even in the virtual world. 
Perhaps, it relates to your horoscope, like you always mention. 

As time goes by, sometimes, in the midst of time, I will wonder like how are you? what are you doing? are you taking meals regularly or instant noodle for every single meal?
Every piece of thoughts make me even more confusing. 
I always wander what are the chances? or none at all? 
What is the biggest concern might be our age gap.
Though I'm totally fine with it but I don't think you do.
Sometimes, it hurts when you constantly teasing on those that I've decided to let go and move on. Be it P or S or PS.

I was pissed off irregularly because I do care what revolve around us.
No one will want to stay unnoticed when it comes to feeling.
No one is worth your pain or tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

Anyway, I will stop right here.